what i wanted to hear

i can sense it approaching

it troubles me so deep inside

the big something

i believe i recognize what it is

change

all my faithful distractions are failing me

nothing can fill the barrenness within me

no one in this place

i appear to be the densest one i know

i suppose it is our nature in common

we see only what we desire

we hear only what tickles our ears

we desire only what is agreeable

not prepared to endure for anything

never embracing the pain of growth

never knowing what it is to stand

how many vain struggles

envision the peace of knowing the way

seeing the path so unmistakably ahead of you

what a burden lifted from you

i have detested my suffering

and fought a excellent battle

i am so weary of fighting now

so tired of asking and not listening

i see it in all areas of my life

things are far simpler then we make them

i have been receiving my answers day after day

they just have not been what i wanted to hear

~csr